How are you all doing?
Me – I am uh, dealing.
This post is to commemorate “the blog post that never was.”
Here’s a couple screen shots of it.
In that blog post, I explain how emotionally exhausted I am.
I go over my thoughts on how I was terrified when my mom fell for the second time in a week, and wasn’t able to pick herself up off the floor or get to a phone for hours. I wasn’t even in town to pick her up off the floor myself.
The week was crazy, there’s no doubt about that.
My brother and I were able to be there on Friday morning when my mom passed. It was – dare I say it in writing – almost beautiful.
See, when you are a believer, there is nothing in this world that can save you. It’s all from another place. It’s all from the spiritual world that our souls go to as we pass through this world. This is what I know and feel with all my being.
I will see my mom again.
Her not here on this planet to suffer any longer is her reward for a lifetime of service to the Most High. She gets to hang out with her mom, her mother-in-law, her sister, her brothers, and so many others that have come before us who believed in Jesus Christ.
I’m actually kind-of jealous, but I know I have work here to do and I certainly don’t want my time to come yet.
But you know what else –
It’s really sucks to not have her here too.
My brother and I can agree on that every time we see each other.
I wanted to start to blog again. I spoke with the doctor yesterday and he said the more times I tell my story, the easier it will get to move on.
With that, I’d like to say that I’m back. Not to normal, because that’s not possible anymore, but hopefully I’ll get used to my new normal.